Believe you are, who you are!

Have you ever had your heart broken so bad that it sets you into depression? Have you ever felt like you were in a box and you try and try to escape but every time you jump out you get pushed right back into it? Have you randomly cried when you’re in public or just siting in front of your laptop on facebook? 

Many questions run through my mind everyday and i’ve tried to push most of them out that have to deal with you but you’re to powerful to overcome and I feel like these feelings for you will never go away. No matter how bad we need them to leave they will never escape my heart. 

I’ve been strong for far to long. I Haven’t been able to express how I feel about you because Of unsaid reasons. We both know how much we love each other but we also know we can only be friends. 

If I had the world my way, we would be the ones together. Let me tell you right now it’s hard to even be around you and not want to kiss you or get wrapped in your arms. 

There’s so many things to get over right now, I kinda refuse to only because I don’t really want to be with anyone but you. 

Quick question: Why do we waste our time giving our hearts to guys that can’t or won’t always be able to be there at all times? 

Another quick question: Why must you hide how you’re feeling? Just to let you know I can take it even tho you shouldn’t say it…I still wanna hear it.

Am i as important to you as you are to me?

I feel like you’re distancing yourself from me or is it just me?

You don’t even say “I love you” anymore, so how am i to be sure that there is anything between us anymore.

We can’t spend time together because you’re busy everyday and i’m becoming busy.

What do we do now??? So many questions to be answer but so little time. 

It’s not like we can spend the whole day together like we use to be able to or just lay around watching t.v. wrap in each others arms.

Like i’ve said before I feel like i’m just you’re escape route….well to be honest I hate it and don’t wanna be just the escape route.

I wanna be more but i know that can’t happen right now.

You know a good friend once told me “You don’t wanna mess up gods plan because nothing is more powerful then the wrath of god.” 

And for that i don’t wanna mess up anything, but i know that i already have….and that’s just one of the things that just kills me.

I see you all the time and to just look at you and know we don’t have a chance because of reasons, SUCKS so much. I die a little more each time we see each other. And the worst part is acting like I just became your friend. 

You know I’ve been thinking so much about this and i started to think if god wanted this for us, he would have had us meet a long time ago and we would be together to this day. But then again he does put people in our lives to teach us a lesson or to be together forever…..I wish i knew which one you were for me.

You have taught me so much and help me get out of the bad things and help me pick myself up like a lady should. And I Do Thank you for that and so much more. 

I would like to know what am I suppose to do now? I feel like I’ve lost you and can’t get you back no matter what I try to do. 

You know I try to hide all of this but it just doesn’t always work anymore. I’m so confused. My thoughts are going crazy every second of the day. I try very hard to get they in order but it hasn’t been working.

All I really want you to know is that I love you and i’ll always be there for you but I think we need to come to terms with each other.

I love you forever and always will!

lovebrys:

Even when the sun dies I am sure the Lord will be there…take a moment to analyse this. Every morning we wake up trusting that the sun will be there, right? Well, what if one day there is no sun? Can you really say God will be there? Will you really believe He will be there? Do you have enough faith to know He will? If your answer is no, I encourage you to seek Him more each day, & He will give you the trust you need. 

I love when random thoughts pop in my mind. I catch myself thinking about you all the time. Sometimes I sit and wonder “is he thinking about me too or am I all alone in this” Then I get a random text saying “I miss you” which just makes my day and puts a smile.